I guess it is something that all
of us heard about long ago…
But
most of us refused to apply to it…
Because…
We
are afraid to be strange and alone?
We are scare of being the
weird-case in the group…
I used to be scare of being
different…
Refused to be outcast…
I want to belong to someone else…
I
want to be everywhere where my friends are…
To
the point that when people abandoned me,
I fear of isolation…
And little did I know…
Nobody
wants me to be part of their group…
They
said, I don’t belong…
I am not like them…
I cannot be their friends…
And they wish that I leave them alone
at times…
But
nobody was brave enough to tell me the truth…
Until
one of them blurted it right into my face…
When
things like that happen,
I
ended up asking myself…
“Why me out of everyone else?”
I am like them…
Or so I thought?
I tried to change myself to blend
in with them…
But I am still unacceptable…
Sigh…
Surely there must be someone who
can accept me, right?
No…
I ended up doing everything alone…
A lone-ranger being laughed at for
being alone…
I tried to find cure/ solution to
my isolation but no answers…
Ended up,
I am still mobbing on the street
alone…
It was many years later,
A
voice spoke to me…
“Why are you so desperate to be
accepted?
Why
do you want to be the one for them when you are uniquely yourself?
Is
it because of approval?
Is
it due to lack of confident?
Why do you want people to say… “You
are who I needed’?
When
you should say to yourself… “I am all I need…”
Life
doesn’t change if you wait for someone else to change…
Life
change when YOU change yourself!
So,
I
begin to pluck my courage,
And left the bunch of friends that
doesn’t count me in…
And start training myself to be
valuable on the inside out…
Without any expectation from
others…
Be completely outstanding…
Be someone that nobody can be…
Because only you can be you!
It
wasn’t easy to begin with…
But
I brave it all out…
I
may look like an oddball within the crowd…
But
I am fine with it…
I learn to accept the difference
between all other human beings…
When
people look at me,
They
have different opinion of me…
Some may say I am lonely or quiet
or shy…
But that’s fine….
Such comment doesn’t define me
entirely…
As the saying goes…
“Don’t judge a book by its cover…”
Loneliness doesn’t mean lonely…
There is a friend within the thin
air…
If we knows how to acquaintance
with it…
Then you will know that someone is
always there…
I have learnt that well…
My secret friends are my music and
my soul…
People
cannot hear my music,
Because
music only sings to me…
Unless I willingly share it out…
Yet nobody knows until they saw me
scrabble it on a piece of paper…
But still,
It doesn’t sum me up as a whole…
You need more details to portrait
me in depth…
Even artists can tell you that you
need at least 100 of hours to paint a live portrait before you can call it ‘done!’
Suddenly,
I
am comfortable in being myself…
I
am good in being me…
Being
different…
Being
special…
Now,
I
don’t need to find someone to accept me anymore…
Because,
In
the end, I am still uniquely me…
I am me…
So,
Just be true…
Be YOU!
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